Embrace the fear

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Dear reader…

Everybody wants to change the world, that’s a fact. We all believe we deserve a better place to live according to our very own standards; however, just a few tempt to do something about it while the rest of humanity would rather stay on the comfort zone… but, why? What’s the big differene between those people and the rest of us? Are they smarter, bigger, stronger?

Making a recap of all the most important leaders in history, I found out they only have one thing in common: they seemed to be fearless. According to history books and newspaper stories, they never hesitated about their decisions and convictions, as if they were not afraid at all, but  weren’t they? I mean, fear is a natural feeling among living creatures, how come were these leaders able to suppress it?

After a while of thinking about it, I came up with the idea that there are just two kinds of people in the world. The first one is the one who is taught that fear means danger, that something is threatening your life; hence, you have to stop moving forward, and, instead, runaway to save yourself. The other kind understands fear a bit different, though. They do believe that fear means something is threatening their lives, but then, if there is a chance of dying, it means life is present and instead of running away, they keep moving forward because their real fear is to miss out the little time they have on Earth.

Leaders, idols, important people in history had the very same capabilities as we all do, the main difference is they dared to follow their dreams and convictions, because they realized that life is too short and nothing is impossible, so the next time that you feel afraid, embrace that fear and do everything that’s up to you to create the world you deserve…

Having said that, I wanna tell a story. If you have been reading me since my first post, you may know I studied finance. During college, I wondered many times if I was in the right place, doing the right thing; however, as Steve Jobs said,

“You can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future”

And so I did. I believed I was living “outside my comfort zone” since I was always involved in different activities and programs that gave me great exposure to the financial sector. My grades were good and I was kind of popular in my Campus. Actually, when I passed CFA level 1, I thought I was “the Wall st. heiress…” Little did I know.

After my graduation, I had to face the real world and it was the scariest thing I’ve ever done. I went to several job interviews just to realize I knew nothing (or at least it felt like that) about finance. The worst part? I knew that someday I wanted to work in New York, but I had no idea of which steps to follow in order to get there.

Stock Market? Private Equity? Fixed Income? COULD SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHAT TO DO?

I was petrified. Whatever my choice was, I would have a great impact on the rest of my life (not only as financier but as a whole) and I was not ready to take such a big responsibility by myself.

One day I received a message of one of my cousins telling me about a job as Junior Analyst in a Private Debt Fund. It sounded interesting; but I thought that moving from the Stock Market would let me out of Wall St forever. Besides, my expertise and knowledge in terms of Private Debt were null. After some research, I scheduled an appointment with my cousin (that resulted on a job interview), and after hesitating for a while, I decided to go on with the application. I got the job.

As I mentioned before, you can only connect the dots backwards. This journey in private debt has been the most inlighting experience I’ve had so far, and within many other things, it had showed me that there are more paths leading to Wall St. than the Stock Market.

Due to this (and some other situations I will share with you in later posts), I’ve learn that nothing is impossible. All you have to do is dare… Dare to apply for the job of your dreams, dare to move to another country, dare to sit for the most difficult test, dare to do all the things you want and stop ovethinking! After all, the best thing you can do right now is to embrace the fear.